The Exam and The Doctor

Alhamdulillah. I have passed my exam. I felt relieved and that was it. Honestly, apart from that, I was numb and do not actually feel that much. Anyhow, this is a good news and I have to thank Allah firstly, and my family and friends for the dua. Especially to my parents who woke each other up at night as to pray for my success.

Honestly, there are nothing in this world that can top your commitment and your love for me.

This exam was the worst period of my life. I have never felt anything like this before. I struggle to find the deeper reasons for sleepless night, mood swing, panick attack and many other things that happen in the span of three weeks exam period. I had a lengthy discussion with Ahmed, and the conclusion was, the exam was nothing more than a trial from Allah. At times in the future when the pressure become unbearable, we will certainly remember how we got through this exam period.

I learned the meaning of friendship, the meaning of being hopeless, the feeling of being alone, the feeling of scared. All of this happened in the three weeks time. I still remember how tired I was at 11 am in the morning just before the MOSLER after having two and half hour sleep. I will definitly engrave that feeling in my mind as it serves as a reminder when I will have to work 36 hours shift at home.

Seriously, there was a lot to learn in the past three weeks of exam. I can certainly write a book from it. Alhamdulillah it's all over now.

I'm spending the rest of my time in Middlesbrough, packing and arranging plan for the next month. I've also watched 'Band of Brothers'; the miniseries. It put everything back in perspective. I will write more. It keeps me occupied.

I miss the time when Yaasir, Ahmed and Kammy were here. All the jokes, the time spent together.

Anyway, life has to move on. I'm going to start my new life soon. For the time being, I'm going to grab as much as I can from the balance of time that I'm here in this country.